
This concert—by Cz.K. Sebő on the Trip Terasz on Friday night—stands out among all the concerts I remember in my life. It left me sad, but in an uplifting way. It opened something up, taught me something, and filled my mind with music that stayed and played onward.
I arrived a little before 4 (the concert started at 7, but the venue had encouraged people to arrive early) and walked around until it was possible to go in. I thought maybe I had arrived much too early, but just minutes later, more people came, and then more and more. So it was wise, not to mention tranquil, to spend a late afternoon on the deck of a stationary ship on the Danube, listening to the sound of water, wind, and traffic. I read Csenger Kertai’s poetry collection Hogy nekem jó legyen from cover to cover, starting at the end, and spent time with particular poems, including “Az elhagyatottságról,” “Dokkolás,” and “A helytartó és a rabszolga.” Now comes the slow reading with the dictionary, but at least I got a feel for the rhythms and some of the meaning.
I was then joined at the table by two friendly people, Zsuzsanna and Timi Mesi, who recognized me from various online comments and who love Sebő’s music. As it happened, Zsuzsanna had her own copy of the Kertai collection with her! Soon Zsuzsanna’s husband joined us too. Now we were a lively table, until the music started and we hushed.
Sebő’s music starts with simplicity and humility, but those are complicated words and can only be part of a complicated reality. Nobody is completely simple or humble. What I mean is that he doesn’t show off, doesn’t rush to the peaks of the songs. He starts playing and lets the songs build on their own. And then when they build, it’s so true that it can break you open. This simplicity can take years to find; you have to play the instrument well and know your voice. Even more than that, you have to be willing to let the music show itself, unforced, both when you write it and when you perform it.
The humility has to do with his admiration of others’ music. This is part of the Platon Karataev foundation too: the knowledge that there’s music greater than their own, but the willingness to give what they have and to keep on searching. The second part of the concert was all covers—carefully chosen and played, and beautiful to the bones. Not for a second does he imitate the author of the original; he sings it as himself. But more about that in a moment.
The place had filled up, and he started out with a thrilling performance of “Eternal Home” (one of the bonus tracks from his Junction EP). Then came “Fear from passing,” then (I think) “Disguise,” then “Junction.” After that, I lose track of the order, but I know two new songs were in there, including “Someday” and one with a Pilinszky poem for the lyrics, in English translation (I believe the poem was “A pokol hetedik kőre,” but I might be wrong). He played “Chamomile,” “Wide Eyes,” “Hart” (which blurred my sight for a while there), “On a fine day,” “Out of Words,” and “The Fox in the Holt,” and there we were, with the sun going down, the water lapping, standing kayakers rowing by, the breeze getting chillier, and these favorite songs living themselves out as they never would again, not in that exact way. The cold was getting a bit stiff; in the break between sets, someone gave him a blanket.
For the second part, he had so much planned, but didn’t get to all of it because the air got still colder. Still, he played at least ten gorgeous covers: first “Purple Rain” (which opened up the song for me, it was so relaxed and genuine), then “In a Year of 13 Moons” by Current Joys, then “Carry on” by Willy Mason, then again I lose track of the order, but one of my favorites was “Rejtelmek” by the Sebő Együttes, whose lyrics are an Attila József poem, and which Sebő had heard many times in his childhood. Another favorite was “The Immigrant Lad” by Eric Burdon and the Animals. He played Dylan’s “Mr. Tambourine Man,” Elvis’s “Are You Lonesome Tonight,” one faster song whose name I don’t know, another song I don’t know (Damien Jurado must have been in there somewhere, but I don’t know where), and then, to finish things off, a Platon Karataev song in Hungarian, one that I have not heard before unless they played it at Budapest Park in August. (In the beginning, the guitar reminds me of “Fear from passing,” but then it takes a different direction.) You could hear, throughout the set, that these songs had guided his own music in one way or another.
I am grateful that he told us what the songs were. (I missed a few titles when he said them, but he said them.) There was no attitude of “You should know what song this is, and if you don’t, you’re dumb.” The audience didn’t have to prove anything. Being there and listening was enough. I think that’s another part of the humility: being willing to accept your listeners as they are, whoever they are, provided they are listening. Young, old, friends, strangers, cool, awkward, lively, quiet, a great musician can allow for them all, and so can the music.
I think a lot of us felt the greatness of this music and this concert. At my table, that was definitely the case. It’s greatness that comes, in part, from not having to be great, not needing to force or feign.
He mentioned that he was going to be playing solo less and less, since future concerts would include a drummer and a bassist. I would wish for both kinds of concerts; a solo concert is unadorned and direct, but I can understand that when other musicians play with you, you have more possibilities of sound and timing.
After the concert ended, I stayed around for a few minutes, but then left so that I could catch the 9:50 train back to Szolnok, a slow local train that gave me time to think back on the concert and hear the songs in my mind, and all the things they were evoking.
I will end this with the concert’s beginning, “Eternal Home,” which led me to start listening to Blaze Foley. Here’s the second verse and chorus:
Whatever is around me
Whatever makes me blind
Balance and composure sleeps inside
And it’s not so hard to find
When I’m walking in the city
And I’m to lose my mind
I’m listening to some Blaze Foley songs
And leave this world behindOh come meet me there,
Let’s jump into that blunted head,
Your home is eternal there
Go deep and shut the world out.
That is what happens at a concert like this, if there is any concert like this. You find your eternal home, and you know you can find it again.
I made a few minor edits to this piece after posting it. The most recent edits were on June 1.
Update: For a sense of what Sebő’s solo concerts are like, see this video recording of a 2020 concert on the A38 Hajó. Both the concert and recording are amazing.
Veronika (Vera) Kisfalvi
/ May 30, 2021What a beautiful review of what sounds like an absolutely beautiful concert and evening all around – the artistry, the setting, the companions. It is such a good feeling to come across a musician who can touch us in this way, so deeply. I have listened to some of the songs you have posted here on your blog, and I love best when he sings in Hungarian (on “kétezerhúsz”), the lyrics are so beautiful, as far as I can actually understand them in the original. So powerful. Can’t help but think of all that I have lost, with the gradual erosion of this language that I have experienced over the years.
On that note, I want to say how impressed I am by the fact that you have learned Hungarian in quite a short time, seem to function so well in it, and are continuing to expand your knowledge and ease with the language. Unfortunately, I have not only forgotten quite a bit, but have not really been able to develop my knowledge of it, having no one to really speak it with for decades. Last time I was in Hungary, I also used a dictionary – to find translations for the English words rattling around in my head. I understand the spoken language reasonably well, but have difficulty finding the right Hungarian words to express what I want to say, and especially for communicating more mature thoughts and feelings to family and friends when I am there, with what amounts to a 7 year old’s vocabulary. Not to mention the mistakes, like confusing the words “pocsolya” and “kocsonya”. Interestingly, I can still write reasonably well, but have great difficulty reading even one full sentence in Hungarian. I have to read it phonetically just to get the words. The song lyrics were easier for me, for some reason.
Be well!
Diana Senechal
/ May 30, 2021Thank you for this comment, Vera! I am glad that my description of the concert managed to convey it, or something of it. I am still hearing the music in my mind.
Yes, I am functioning well in Hungarian, although in any given time interval I can alternate between comfortable, fluid speech and stumbling. But it makes all the difference to be surrounded by it all the time, and I still have a long way to go. I didn’t even know the words “pocsolya” and “kocsonya”! Instead of “pocsolya,” I am used to “tócsa,” and instead of “kocsonya,” the loanwords “aszpik” or “zselé.” But that is an aspect of Hungarian that is yet to come for me: knowing many synonyms of a given word, and understanding the difference between them. I love seeing and hearing the language open up over time.
It is interesting what you say about having a 7-year-old’s vocabulary (which probably includes hundreds, if not thousands, of words that I don’t know). A person’s language can get frozen in time like that. That is why I am careful with the word “fluent,” which I used to use much more loosely. I became “fluent” in Dutch as a ten-year-old, as a result of living in Holland for a year. (My sister even more so; she had no American accent whatsoever.) Yet the Dutch that I knew was that of a ten-year-old, so even when some of it comes back, it has built-in limitations (but also songs, colloquial expressions, etc.). But that’s different from your experience, since we were only there for a year, whereas Hungarian was the language of your childhood.
I am looking forward to Sebő’s first full-length album, which is coming out soon and will have many songs in Hungarian. I love the English-language lyrics; they do things with the language, and evoke emotions, that I have not heard in songs before. But this movement toward Hungarian-language songs (on his part and on Platon Karataev’s) has many reasons behind it; I think one of them has to do with the level of expression that is possible in the native language.
If you come back to Hungary to visit, we should find a way to meet!
Veronika Kisfalvi
/ June 11, 2021Sorry for this delayed response. I would love to meet you, if I do go back (which I long to do, but not sure when such travel will become possible again …).
Also, I just saw this and thought it might interest you. Perhaps you know about it already, but I thought I’d send it in case you don’t.
https://www.kveller.com/jamie-lee-curtis-is-restoring-her-grandparents-synagogue-in-hungary/?utm_content=buffer60dc7&utm_medium=social&utm_source=thenosher&utm_campaign=buffer&fbclid=IwAR06-MS22H252G2YkzE28s-ZNw2tD1_PiNQOo5mmDKzSQWKsHOO42neIjuk
Best and Shabbat shalom! It is not quite Shabbat here …
Vera
Diana Senechal
/ June 13, 2021Thank you for the link, Vera! That is wonderful news. I went to a concert by members of the Budapest Festival Orchestra at the Mátészalka synagogue last August (it was part of their ongoing synagogue series). The interior had an otherworldly quality, as you can see from the photo: https://dianasenechal.wordpress.com/2020/08/26/the-synagogue-concert-in-mateszalka/.
veronikakisfalvi4972
/ June 13, 2021And thank you for the link to your post about the Mátészalka synagogue, I found it very moving.